depression at bday eve :(

FIRST SHIT IM GONNA DO IS TO: ARGHHHHHHH!

:( I just told ma friend im gonna have depression seriously.
Shit why, why's ma bday right before darning O LEVEL?!
I wanted to sob again :'(
Anyway Im still fearing bout 'youknowwhat'.
TWO HOURS MORE. ITS MA 17TH BIRTHDAY.
I know its a pretty normal thing.
But youknow, i feel no happiness :(
All i feel are fear, upset.
A lil of O level and some other shit.
Patricia just wished me happy birthday i dont know when.
Cause its a off line messages you see.
I dont feel real out bout it cause i know its alrdy ma bday in AUST.
First song i listen once i got connected's this mandarin song.
祝我生日快乐 by some lady
I know i sound farking depressed and feel it as well

Right now I need this person, seriously, badly.
Shit just right now, I totally abandon the first two.
I know, i dont want them now.
And i know, i've been missing the third and hoping.
SHITYO. I LOATHE THIS FARK FEELING. I DONT FEEL RIGHT.

I guess i will know the answer less than two hours
I might feel at least safer if i passed ma seventeen birthday
Shit i have to control those sobs :[

Fark it everyone's get on ma nerve.
So just let me laugh the whole day tmr please
I dont even know if i can make it :(
Shit sobs fark offffffff
I think im taking a shower to wash off SUCKINESS.
ok CIAO.
I might write another post later on :)
you know, i wanna make a bday wish.
May God Bless Me. CIAO! ;)