my body system is fucked up! D; x

Have you guys experienced it before?
It feels like an asthma attack.
For a moment, you can't really breathe, your heart's aching, bodywater about to flow out
:'( its a sad feeling

If only......................
If only............
If only....... why do you people always say those two freaking words?
If only it really happened, the present's gonna be like the presenttttt!
wtf am i saying. i mean, yea if only you realized it before its too late, you wont gonna blabber bout stuff like these now
IF ONLY. i hate these two words
they suck they make my heart aches so much so much
im not kidding. its a little numb right now. everytime whe i feel like this, i get really fup
like you cant do anything bout it. but the numbing feeling is worse than fishspa
THINKABOUT IT!! OUCHHH D; not in a good mood
i hate my body system its officially fucked up.

D:;;
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