HAH I'M DITCHING SCHOOL TOMORROW, OH TODAY.. in a whileeee
school starts at 12.30pm today anyway urgh i'm going to ditch school seriously
my self position paper is undone well i have this habit of not doing assignments or doing it on the due date, it turns out the same as my exams... i hateeeeeeeeeeee going to school doing assignments and taking exams seriouslyyyyyyy whats thaattt forrr
i was just talking to this boyish girl in church earlier in the afternoon.. she's one year younger.. and she doesn't have a secondary school cert :( she's one of my longest friend in church.. i feeel sad for herr not pity just sad. she doesn't like to study, just like me. she was enrolled into this private school ever since she was in form2. so.. she didn't even take pmr or spm or any official exams except for school tests.. she can get receive her high school cert after finishing the highsch.. american education system runs in her school. well obviously, she didn't finish it. so she ended her school life this year.. not long ago, its only been a few months.. so yea, she's working for her aunt in this chinese medicine shop.. its really sad that she cant do anything right now... her parents are not paying for her fees or anything.. well her parents are not christian.. :( only the girl and one or two of her aunts are. sigh even when she was in school, her parents didn't pay for her fees but her aunt did. but her results didn't turn out too good that she has to repeat a few times, so her aunts can't afford to pay for her anymore that she had to pay for her own fees :( she can't afford to go to school now... she was telling me she's planning to go to melbourne for a few months to figure out whats she gonna do in her life.. i guess she's trying to find a job there but i told her its not as easy as she thinks it would be.. people tell her the pay is really high there.. yea probably higher than in malaysia.. but its not so easy to find one.. especially when she doesn't even have a proper cert. nothing is so damn sad. oh her cousin is in melbourne, so at least she thinks she can stay w her.. so yea i felt like her nowadays.. i really dont want to study.. work either.. i dontknow what am i gonna do w my life.. my results are going down teachers hate me because i always submit my assignments late.. i hate doing assignments and studying for exams.. can u believe i only study for my majors on the day itself? im not joking but i really hate wht im doing in life. i find psychology interesting as in how the mind works and stuff but i never find studying interesting.. i hate memorizing the theories.. i hate doing lab reports i hate writing essays.. i hate taking tests.. i don even read my books i don even do my assignments im so sure this is not pms this was meant to be a happy post cause im not going to school tomorrow but turned out its so depressing.. urghhhhhhhhhhhhhhh i really need to find something interesting in my lifeeeeee.. i dislike eveything i hate them all is there anything that i love? whereeeeee is the loveeeeeeeeeeee? B.E.P.S lol.. urghhhhh headachessss :( i don like feeling like a loser. i fail in life just like how they've always cursed me.. i don like the word karma, for some reason it sounds majorly evil to me.. like its some evil gods name. its freakingggg me outttt okay byeeee i need to go to bed! adios la amigos! x
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