so i met kit and damn.

today, um i mean yesterday.
i got asked twice.
f u know what was it?
i got asked twice if i still stay in contact w you.
seriously.
i know i know i know its not like you want it that way.
i just don't get it.
why can't everyone get over with you?
like seriously.
no matter how hard my conscience wants it to be.
i actually believe that you are not coming back anymore.
no matter how hard it is.
i'm actually trying very hard to forget the past.
sometimes i actually hope that i will get amnesia.
whatever it is.
i'll rather forget every shit.
rather than the bad ones polluting my good memories.
cos i know it'll always stuck in my fup mind.
my head hurts so bad yesterday.
and i was feeling a little sick in the stomach.
i hate to think.

and after school.
i met up with kit.
it was just stupid.
like a fing mistake.
and i was fing embarrassed.
i think he probably doesn't wanna meet me ever again.
i really hate dealing with guys.
we always have a communication barrier.
i really hope i can treat guys like any other girls.
and i hate awkward moments.

and then.
i'll meet up with mich, deline and her baby zachary.
i can't wait to meet him.
i love babies and toddlers.
age above that are just plain nuisance.
so i hope tomorrow will be a fine day.

and i can't stop thinking.
hella bitch.
tu me manques!

bye x